jonah's Birthday

Yesterday was jonah's 9th birthday party! But he didn't know it until he came home from school and saw his beautiful cake on the table with his presents. Then he came over to me and said , bekki , "I saw my birthday stuff out but i don't know when were having my birthday party!"when are we having it ? I said to jonah "were having it today" You should of been there to
see what I saw ... the big smile on jonah's face. He was like yess give me a hug . It was so cute ! Oh yeah and when it was cake time jonah had so many candles on his cake. 21 candles to be exact they were colorful so they made the cake look really cool. The family gathered around to sing happy birthday to jonah but in a very off key . hahaha. it was funny. Jonah then blew out his candles and we all yelled *YAY*. MMMmmm the cake was so declicous, so most , so soft . That cake went down my stomach pretty fast . My tummy agreed that it was good . After cake time it was present time. This was Jonah's favorite part I could tell by the expression on his face . A bunch of cool presents lay in front of jonah on the table. Only did me , abby , matthew and mary know what they were... cause we shopped for them with my mom at walmart. A skooter with cool blue wheel, a midnight club game for the playstation 3 and a pair of shoes. While jonah was opening his presents we all gathered around him and my mom took pics. This day was awesome !! I love you , jonah :)

Fun Day

Today me and my mom went to walmart so she could get her hair trimmed. My mom was so excited. I was pretty excited for her as well. When we got there we had to shop a little cause the salon wasn't open yet. They usually open up around ten . So in the mean time me and my mom went shopping for a little bit while we waited. Next thing we know its way past ten and the stylist is still not there. Omgosh . come on , lady . Your suppose to be running the business and your late . Puh .. that's what i call bad serivice. :( Me and my mom ended up leaving but on our way out we went to Mcdonalds in walmart and had a yogurt with fruit . Yummmy! it was good. The lady taking our order was really nice and helped us out . Her name was chris . Yeah , my mom was talking to her and how the salon wasn't open . Chris told my us that there was a place where she takes her niece. Just across called holiday bronze. So we went there to see if it was open and sure enought it was. Yesss!!! While mommy was getting her hair down I read a few
magazines. As soon as the lady was done with my mom's hair looked awesome .... I love it. :)

The colors are changing

Its about that time when it get's cooler and the leaves start to change. I love when the leaves change to different colors like orange, red and yellow. . Its so beautiful. The more colors , the more excitement.

Is God speaking to me ?

Lately, I've been having sometime with God and really talking to him . Everyday when I get into my time with God and ask him all kinds of things that are on my mind. There has been so much on my mind lately about times when in situtations I could do somethng about them to make them better. Well for some reason those situtations that I went through I think about a lot they just seem to always come to mind. I've learned the hard way from experience because God is saying ''Bekki you know what you did was wrong but that doesn't mean there isn't going to be any punishment''. Sometimes after I realize I've done something wrong rarely do I actually think about the punishment or consequances that i'm going to have. Often when getting the punishement that I deserve i'm truly not always the one to take it well. Feeling
like maybe God is being to harsh on me but he's not . Just a simple way of saying life is going to be unfair wether we want it to or not. Through all my past bad but good memories God is speaking to me trying to tell me something. Whenever a memory comes up from the past that is
is maybe not so good it's come to my attention for varius reasons. If its a bad one and it tears up my eyes to think about it. Its okay . I've been wondering why this is now all the sudden really grabbing my attention yet that i do not know. In time will I understand what God is trying to tell me. The reason I think God is trying to bring these memories is for a good reason he wants me to have another chance . When I say he wants to give me another chance I mean even though many , many, many, times God has given me more than enough chances and yet I screwed up. He says you can still make the time to do whatever it is you think you did wrong and maybe try to make things better. If anything yes I would like to be able to make things a lot better. I've aready been trying to reach to find the courage to tell so many people I'm sorry . When the time , day and moment is right I'll make it happen. Meanwhile I'm trying to find the right words for how much pain I caused many people. I'm praying that whenever it's time God will help me
do the right thing this time , say the right things time and be more like a christian this time . I'm going to do the right thing this time. Nothing impossible with God !!!!!

Trusting God In A Change

I've learned something really big about trusting God in the hard times we go through. In my opinion it all is a test God is testing you to see how u will react to the that situation. Will you think of the negative or the postive or believe in him or not. Having faith in him would be something good to do in a time like that. If God puts u through something hard most likely there's a reason and we don't always know what that is. But God says if you believe in me and believe that I have the power and ability to do anyting , he knows what's best. Many times it's hard for us to understand that because all we do is think of the negative so we never see what God has in store for us what he wants us to do. I know it was so hard for my family to trust God in the time we had things just kept getting worse and we didn't know why. Sometimes I didn't know what to do I was never so positive about it. When my dad lost his job it was pretty bad but I thought things would be so simple from then on I kept praying and asking God for help. At many times I wanted to give up only because it seemed like nothing was being done. I realized something after that who would I be to give up on God after what he's done for me . He payed my ransom for what I did he has always been true to me , protected me , lead me and never gave me up on me even though I let him down. There is so many times I could think of when I let God down but he still gave effort to love me and care for me. God has inspired me in so many ways to be more like him in a way that would be pleasing. He helps me to realize not to be so quick to give up on people even when it's hard. We have to learn to be strong when we fell like letting people go and so weakness. After a while I realized I need to do what God wants me to do go we he needs me. My mom really helped me she kept telling me remember when God told Jonah to go to Ninevehand he refused. In the consequence came out of that was he was gobbled up into the belly of a whale. He was in his belly for three days and I knew if I refused like Jonah did I would be stuck in punishment also and i didn't want that to happen. I prayed to God and asked him to forgive me for being so rude they way I was I was only thinking about what I thought was best. Some how though I knew what I that was the best for wasn't God knew what was. God knew I was going to be like that and knew I would feel guilty for the way I acted. I had a dream about moving we got a paper in the mail saying we got the house. God was telling me something he was like a voice echoing saying you know what u need to do . Next thing I'm kneeling on the ground asking God to show me what it is he wants for me telling him I'll do what he says telling him I was sorry I tried to ignore what he knew what was best for me. I have to say we are so lucky to have a God who is always forgiving God forgives us even when we don't deserve it. My life is in Gods hands what ever decides it's right for me and I will follow after. :)

Wedding party

Last Saturday we had a wedding a party for my sister Sarah and her husband Curtis. It was so fun we had a couple of people come over and we had lots of food to go around. It was even better because my best friend Mikeala came over . So we all got our food and went to the back tv room and watched America's Funniest Videos . I had the best time I was laughing my head off and my stomach started hurting. Every loved it and we enjoyed eating our food . Im still stuck on the fact that my sister Sarah is married my sister is growing up wow! This is all so different for me now that my sister is married. My mom is so great that she made is possible for the best wedding party that my sister could ever have. There was a lot of cooking and cleaning involved but it was al worth it because we celebrated a marriage that was great.

Fantastic Friday

Today Rachel , Olivia , Elijah and julius are coming over and maybe Mrs. Michelle. We are going to have a fun day today were are going to make paper sunglass raindrops eat pancakes and suasage which of course is my favorite part. Ilove to eat. Then were are going to watch Nims Island this is going to be so fun. Ican't wait to see my nephews and niece I adore them there are so cute I love having them over it makes things more exciting. Were get to see Rachel and the munchins ever Friday. That's when I get excited on the weekend.